今年的新年对我而言没以往那么热闹 似乎一年比一年清静 看到一个两个的部落格说被催婚 突然觉得自己老了 虽然我没有遇到同样的问题 可是我们真的有那么老吗？老到要被催婚 长辈们说 谈恋爱不要谈那么久 以免因熟悉而分开 不得不信他们说的 毕竟他们都比我们更有经验 可是对我而言 不谈久一点 又怎样看清一个人列？ 很矛盾 最近很看好的朋友 还是敌不过时间的考验 分手了 我 实在是有点惊讶 难道爱情是真的那么脆弱？ 明明他们看上去是好好的 嗨~真的不懂如何去经营是好

虽然开学开了一个星期 我的灵魂还没回来啊 手头上要做的东西实在是很多 真的不懂如何分配时间 想睡少一点 又怕第二天很没精神 再加上自己很错乱 到底这次应该怎样 一天成绩还没出 就是少了一个劲要去温习 虽然清楚知道不该这样的 学校测验又要到了 压力到 痘痘一直找上门啊！

朋友们 我很想念你们啊。。哪天我们大家都可以出来聚一聚？ 大家的距离似乎越来越远了。。 有时候真的觉得 这句歌词 ‘看起来朋友很多 知心的没几个’ 很贴切啊~

May be I just think too much

Argh.. This holiday was so bored. Suddenly, I feel so lonely. I like to be alone, but these few days really make me feel that I really having no plan to do. All of the closest friends have their own planning for the holidays. Though I not very like to go out, but staying in the house for few straight days really can make me crazy.

Just now, suddenly feel that I wanna eat McD. So, I ask my sis to go along with me. Besides going there, I also want to go to the grocery shop to buy some snacks and buy ice blended mocha that I suddenly craving for. When I drove outside, I really feel scary. Everywhere is so dark (nilai really like kampung, all the roads are so dark), decided to go for the ice blended first. What? The café is closed. So down. So went to grocery shop buy other stuffs, really like only few shops are opening. So, I went to the shop and when going back, there is 2 african outside the shops. Wa, really scary, I don’t know why just feel scary. There is no other on the street. Holiday is really holiday, the street also became so silent and weird. The silence made me feel even lonely. He went to vacation. For the first few days. I feel so free without his voice. Haha. But today really not used to it, we almost hang on the phone for everyday. Suddenly, I am thinking of how is the life if I am going to work at other place one day. If we were far apart, I used to feel that it really doesn’t matter as long as we care for each other. Even though he is not supporting me for doing that. Things may be different now, I guess I am the one that cannot handle this situation. Without me, he still can live happily. And I, I don’t know how much time that I need to paralyze myself. I hate myself to become this, I believe no one cannot live without other. Just like the lyric in jolin’s song-没有一个人 非要另一个人才能过一生. I want to be independent, I don’t want to depend on any other. Linie is right, we need to grow up. Somehow, we are forced to grow up too.

I don’t know why I am so emo today. I guess because I am too free to think too much.

Forget about it. My room is in a mess. I want to go to Ikea to find for small furniture to fit inside my room. Many of my stuffs at pandan indah had been moved to my house at Nilai since I staying most of the time here. Clothes, bag and notes are all over my room. May be some day I even need one personal shoes rack for me in this house. Just that I not dare to bring all shoes home, or else my dad will fainted to see my shoes. As he always said, 1 person also need so many shoes meh? But now I am in a controllable condition la at least. Last time was even worse.

I WANT TO GO OUT. Anyone willing to fetch me? =(

考完了

就这样 试考完了
没有原本很期待的感觉
只是好像越来越沉重了
接受了 该会有的结果
不是自己太悲观
是本人太有自知之明了

我开始追看下一站,幸福了
我知道很迟
但是 我还是爱上了vanness =P

明天 要去找‘他’打架
后天 要回公司一趟
大后天 去槟城lu~~

嗨~

别人读书我读书
自认自己并没有懒惰（虽然偶尔还是有偷懒）
把自己喜欢的事放弃
把朋友也丢一边
得到的是一堆一堆的疑问

以为今天会好过昨天
怎知今天还比昨天还要‘屎’
我真不知道如何继续下去

每一次每一次
我都想放弃
每一次每一次
讲到自己都闲了
我还是会继续

这次真的崩溃了
或许读书根本不适合我

哭了 累了
继续 又哭
自己的抗压能力真的很差
嗨~

诉完了
现在要去冲凉
冲完了 还是得继续吧

我 已经没有读下去的力量
或许 我该考虑做工了吧
这次 我是认真的！

无题

很累很累的时候 看看照片 疲惫也跟着减少了

我会加油 因为你是我的动力之一

我要放假

期待着下一趟之旅 跟谁都好

爸爸妈妈

我回家了 回家这一趟 感觉很好 这次比较特别的是本大小姐驾车回家了 第一次没人在身旁驾车 感觉真的有点可怕

回到家 整个人放松了很多 最近健康状况没那么好 所以时间大多都花在睡觉上面 我要快快去找个专科来看才行 这几天也看到爸爸妈妈对我的不放心 担心我的健康 担心我驾车安不安全 担心我不够钱用 就好像今天早上 爸爸问我你车还有油吗？要我帮你打油吗？我说不用 他又说要打油就拿信用卡去打（信用卡都是爸爸再帮我还的）之后跟他出去的时候 经过toll 他又问我你touch & go还有钱吗？要帮你去加吗？爸，不用啦..我会的啦 之后载了我回家 他要去做工的时候 又问你还有钱吗？够钱用吗？（爸，我好像前正子才跟你要钱咧..）我看到你对我的关心 担心 可是 我的样子好像很缺钱的样子吗？虽然我没有多余的钱 可是至少生活上还不至于有什么问题的 所以爸爸 你不要担心了好吗

之后 回到家就躺在沙发奄奄一息 妈妈看到了又问 你明天真的要驾车回家啊？我不放心咧.. 不然你叫sam载你回去啦 傻了一下 不然每一次那辆车妈咪帮我驾下来 然后我只是驾上去吗？ =.=''

突然这几天觉得 爸爸妈妈真的觉得我还很小很小

爸爸妈妈 好想好想每一天都像这样 可以待在你们的身边 毕竟 等以后正式做工后 应该也没那么常回家了吧

爸爸妈妈 我爱你们

I just couldn't take it anymore

To the what extent can my limitation go to the max?

I miss my mom
I miss my home
I miss Linie
I miss Chiok Ling
I miss Mei Ying

I just couldn't take it anymore TT

该死的想法

话说 那天和某位旧朋友喝茶去了 他还是老样子没什么变到
人家有心事 想说出来说说话 他应该会好点
可是我根本没在专心聆听 真不好意思
那件事一直在我脑海里打转 感觉越来越强烈 我想我是傻了
我知道那是很不清醒的想法
我明明清楚知道 这件事至今从来都不是我想追求的事
可是就不知道为什么
我想多一阵子 这些该死的想法 应该会暂时平伏吧

知道的你们 请帮我保守这个秘密哦 :P

I felt cheated by ACCA

'Check it out. ACCA had stopped graduation indefinitely. Because they are more focussed on converting the Affiliates to full members. Apparently there are a high number if ACCA grads that dont file their PER so they are using the budget to hold some kinda meet up between members and affiliates in sum sorta focus to encourage the affiliates to be more proactiv in attaining their membership.'

I found this from the lowyat.net forum. So sad. Graduation ceremony is what I pursue for so long. I want to give the proudest moment to my parents and now this is what ACCA told us. Feel cheated. Somemore, increasing our fees every years. What the ... !!

This is called ACCA.

Tireddddd

Tired tired tired. I know I shouldn't say this. They are a lot more people that are tired than me especially those working friends.

Lastly, I can get home. Happy for being home, but tomorrow going class again. Tired of travelling.

I am so dulan today for waiting my dad's friends for dinner for 2 hours in the restaurant. Why can't you say you will be late. What is the point you told us that you are on the way. Then bring one so called your gf dinner together. So where is your wife? Feel like to bit the sei hao po. Really!! Already have bf still want to stick with other's husband. Ok, I shouldn't say this here. I should only mind my own business.

Bf suggested to go Hong Kong next year. So excited but still in considering. Go or not?

Go or not?


Go or not??



Go or not???

有你真好

我　总是带给你麻烦
说好要独立　可是反而越来越依赖你
你对我的好　对我的照顾　我都看在眼里
然而我一直不停的接受　没有付出过什么
我深怕有天你会累　会厌倦
到时不要嫌弃我好吗?

亲爱的　一路走来　谢谢你　有你真好:-)

HELP!

Non stop classes made me so tired. Not yet start any revision, but I am going out for vacation again next week. Class clashing. After come back need to be audited. Arghh.. Don't feel to work anymore, but I don't want to be so irresponsible. How how how? I feel like the time is not enough, but I know the problem is on me. My time management is so bad. I sleep I watch movie when I have free time. And yet I can do a lot of things during the free time. I have been keep on delaying my revision plan. I can feel that I will be dying soon after come back. HELP~~ Anyone can HELP me?!