终于终于 考完试啦 想哭但暂时还没哭出来 考完了 整个人也轻松了 但是人就是犯贱的 平时那么的爱看戏 平时那么的爱上线 平时那么的想睡觉 突然之间人变的空虚 不懂要做什么 看戏又闲 上线不懂上什么 睡觉睡不着 为什么 人非要这么犯贱不可咧？

我有付出努力 可是还是不会做 真的很伤心咯 学生的生活 我真的受够啦 我要做工 我要赚钱 我要买很多很多自己喜欢的东西 我还要等几久啊？

下学期决定转去sunway读书 一直都想要做的事 要搬去宿舍住 有点紧张tim 又是时候忙搬家了 @_@ 短短的假期 我要充分利用才行

朋友们 我得空啦 约我出去吧 xD


lovely couple ♥

Gonna leave the place that i stayed for 3 years..
我想我会怀念这里的

请原谅这样的我

对他有点觉得抱歉 发现到自己真得不能和一个人太好 否则我真得很容易会欺负对方

与其说是欺负 因该是说我的真实性格吧 我很容易不耐烦 这个我真的抗拒不了 一旦觉得不耐烦 就会对某人忽冷忽热 而这样真实的我 或许只有几个人才会见识到吧 我想 他们应该会很痛苦吧 对不起

去了好姐妹的毕业典礼 好羡慕 也不懂几时才到我？和几个不错的中学同学见面 有点像小型聚会 喜欢三八的气氛 了解大家的状况 晚上也和他们去吃了晚餐 好不容易最近都有和住在附近的朋友保持联系 出来聚会 但不久又要远离这里熟悉的朋友了 有点觉得可惜 虽然也没搬到很远去 可是想到也没什么聚会的机会了 就有点emo起来了 不久后又要重新适应新环境了 我可以做到吗？

还有9天又是考试了 这次没有以往的那么紧张 也不懂为什么 或许时间还没到吧

Acca的同伴们， 加油哦！

Oh yeah ^^v off to taiwan tomorrow. My luggage still half way preparing. Luckily my fever is ok now.

I have a lot of places that I want to go. Need to wait I am super rich only can go. May be 20 years later? Maldives, Hokkaido, Korea wait for me.

I got my new toy last week. It is cute. I love it, thanks dear ^_^

My dream heaven, when I can go there?

丢了的自己，我会记得捡回来吗？

有时候我还真不了解我自己 哪一个是真正的我我也不懂
我学着做更好的自己 可是这样的我 反而让我自己劳累
有些话想说 不知怎么说 有些话 说了就不想重复地再说 时机错了就是错了还是我们的表达能力都很有问题？
以前 在很久以前 很该死的想法 通通又涌上脑海里了
日复一日 越来越频密 我知道那是不对的
好想到处走走 就自己一个人 kl有这样的地方吗？

Tracy送了我一盒月饼 那天在她家说好吃 问她哪里买的
结果竟然真的送了我一盒 谢谢啦 林太 真的很好吃 很感动

我也很想像以前一样 在家没有提灯笼 不过点很多很多的蜡烛 真怀念 （那是回不到过去的童年）

刚才在面子书刊了一个很有意思的文章 share 出来一下

有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆

有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个口。　 　　

有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。

有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。　　 　　

有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。 　　 　　

有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。　

有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。 　　 　　

有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。　

有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。

有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。 　　 　　

有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。

有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。

有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。 　　 　　

真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。 　　 　　

有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。 　　 　　

有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。 　　 　　

有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。 　　 　　

有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。　

有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。

有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。 　　 　　

有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感， 可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。 　　 　　

有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。 　　 　　

有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。 　　 　　

有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。

有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。 　　 　　

有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。 　　 　　

其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。　　 　　

跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。对于在乎你的，不想让 他们担心，有时候， 没有消息就是一种好消息。

其实，很想说“我很好”，或许是昧着心说谎， 也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。 　　 　　

丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……

该死的我都犯着每一个有时候

May be I just think too much

Argh.. This holiday was so bored. Suddenly, I feel so lonely. I like to be alone, but these few days really make me feel that I really having no plan to do. All of the closest friends have their own planning for the holidays. Though I not very like to go out, but staying in the house for few straight days really can make me crazy.

Just now, suddenly feel that I wanna eat McD. So, I ask my sis to go along with me. Besides going there, I also want to go to the grocery shop to buy some snacks and buy ice blended mocha that I suddenly craving for. When I drove outside, I really feel scary. Everywhere is so dark (nilai really like kampung, all the roads are so dark), decided to go for the ice blended first. What? The café is closed. So down. So went to grocery shop buy other stuffs, really like only few shops are opening. So, I went to the shop and when going back, there is 2 african outside the shops. Wa, really scary, I don’t know why just feel scary. There is no other on the street. Holiday is really holiday, the street also became so silent and weird. The silence made me feel even lonely. He went to vacation. For the first few days. I feel so free without his voice. Haha. But today really not used to it, we almost hang on the phone for everyday. Suddenly, I am thinking of how is the life if I am going to work at other place one day. If we were far apart, I used to feel that it really doesn’t matter as long as we care for each other. Even though he is not supporting me for doing that. Things may be different now, I guess I am the one that cannot handle this situation. Without me, he still can live happily. And I, I don’t know how much time that I need to paralyze myself. I hate myself to become this, I believe no one cannot live without other. Just like the lyric in jolin’s song-没有一个人 非要另一个人才能过一生. I want to be independent, I don’t want to depend on any other. Linie is right, we need to grow up. Somehow, we are forced to grow up too.

I don’t know why I am so emo today. I guess because I am too free to think too much.

Forget about it. My room is in a mess. I want to go to Ikea to find for small furniture to fit inside my room. Many of my stuffs at pandan indah had been moved to my house at Nilai since I staying most of the time here. Clothes, bag and notes are all over my room. May be some day I even need one personal shoes rack for me in this house. Just that I not dare to bring all shoes home, or else my dad will fainted to see my shoes. As he always said, 1 person also need so many shoes meh? But now I am in a controllable condition la at least. Last time was even worse.

I WANT TO GO OUT. Anyone willing to fetch me? =(

Trip coming soon~

Lastly, I managed to have time to sit and online here. Suddenly so busy since yesterday. Yes, I like the feel for being busy. Feel that I have a long time that live in the life that is free. Not that I am really had nothing to do with, but is just that my class usually is only 3 hours for a day. Plus the 2 hours on the transport time. I only busy for 5 hours. All the remaining time is free. Free doesn't mean not occupied, just that not doing something is meaningful.

Ok, let's talk about yesterday until today. I woke up early hoping that I can have some time to review my notes before my catchup class started. But I failed to do so, helping my dad to analyze the trip to Taiwan. Called for 2 agents and compared for the price. Keep asking me to give them some time to confirm with me and bla bla bla. While waiting, doing some research at cari forum. Wa, I get a lot of useful information there. Now I know why bf likes to hang at forum so much. Feel so sorry that I always mumbling him for wasting time there. (Sam Ho, anyway this is not the reason for you staying there for so long time next time XD) Continue my story, they called back and I decided to follow the Malaysian Harmony for 6D5N. Plus my free and easy for 2 days. Hehe. So, I am going off in the middle of October. *Happy* By the time I managed to bank in for the fees and settle the flight, it was already 12pm. Bath and lunch to go for class in a rush. After the long class, reach home is already 10++pm. Dinner, bath, play with my Teddy and Wawa, sms with bf, chat with viv for a while. Then I already fainted on the bed I think. (kua jeong) There is a long time I never fall asleep in not more than 1 second. Lol

So, today wake up early and send Teddy for a blood test and shave him botak. I think I kena the speed track on my way. Forget that Raya is coming and should be a lot of camera are set up. Hope I din get the summon la. After settled all, reach home is already around 3pm. And once again, I fainted on my lovely bed. =.=''

2nd term started. It is the indication that exam is coming very very soon too. It's time to start study. After December exam, will be going to Singapore with vivian and may be mom too. Then cant wait for my Hong Kong trip on next year. Hehe. And our SPSL trip to Tioman. Yor, so excited la!

See this, he is Teddy in botak, no doubt, his cuteness gone. But I believe the cuteness will be returning soon.


I am in love with this photo lately =)

醒来吧！

我看开并不代表我开心
分数接近及格又怎样 还不是一样是不及格
人比人 比死人 你没有听过吗
就算自己的努力比别人多 考得再烂过人 就当是自己不够努力吧
难道你在埋怨成果又会改变吗
为什么又是这样自己钻牛角尖

醒来吧！

Nothing Ever Changes

I love this song.
Part of the sounds of my heart.
May be someday in the future.

Teddy :D

Class will start tomorrow and I am in a mess. I need to settle down myself. I need to make myself comfy for everything. I wish everything can run smoothly. Guess I will have a lot more of free time compare to last half year.

I got my baby boy~ Teddy :D

Hope he is happy staying with us. (Btw, my mom let Mimi go away. Feel very sorry to her. Hopefully she enjoy with her gang)

The photo. Why papa smiled reluctantly? Wow wow!!

Germany vs England

Hehe, I watched the world cup match between Germany vs England with bf last night. The first time watch football match. So sakai la wei. Well, you all know that I'm not interested in all kind of games. And I hate sports a lot.

The game is quite excited in the first half match and there is also misjudgement between. But then, I fall asleep in the sofa for the second half match. Lol~ Sleep everywhere.. Ok la, will watch the final also if have tv with me. Going back cheras again next week, class started again. Even though the holiday was bored. But I still mm se dak my holidays argh. Keke..

Dear, am I that delicious? XD

From penang go to kl. From kl to nilai. And from nilai to kl. And again from kl to nilai.

So tired >.<

我没说我也会软弱
需要依赖你
你就装不晓得
自由移动自我地过

考完了

就这样 试考完了
没有原本很期待的感觉
只是好像越来越沉重了
接受了 该会有的结果
不是自己太悲观
是本人太有自知之明了

我开始追看下一站,幸福了
我知道很迟
但是 我还是爱上了vanness =P

明天 要去找‘他’打架
后天 要回公司一趟
大后天 去槟城lu~~

嗨~

别人读书我读书
自认自己并没有懒惰（虽然偶尔还是有偷懒）
把自己喜欢的事放弃
把朋友也丢一边
得到的是一堆一堆的疑问

以为今天会好过昨天
怎知今天还比昨天还要‘屎’
我真不知道如何继续下去

每一次每一次
我都想放弃
每一次每一次
讲到自己都闲了
我还是会继续

这次真的崩溃了
或许读书根本不适合我

哭了 累了
继续 又哭
自己的抗压能力真的很差
嗨~

诉完了
现在要去冲凉
冲完了 还是得继续吧

我 已经没有读下去的力量
或许 我该考虑做工了吧
这次 我是认真的！

The stuffs in my room

Like usual, my table will become like this every half year. According to ms vivian, the more messy the notes, its mean u study a lot. Because of that, I always draw my notes here and there. I used to love tidy notes before but now I love my notes that being like rubbish. Even myself not understand what I am writing. 最高境界

This book is very helpful. But I never flip.

Need to clear the rooms after exam.

I like to buy a lot of thingy that I seldom used.

The memory of renjer puteri >.<>

And lastly, the exam docket~

- The end -

i laughed at bf for having ulcer.
and i got it on the 2nd day after wake up.
Karma~

Countdown to the june 2010 sitting~

Yeah~ I book the hotel for penang after exam. From 5 of us, now only left 2 or 3. Never mind, plan just will go on. I must have a break before the class start again.

I am hearing back those recordings during the revision for f7. I am in love with Mr. Haneef with his explaination. Well elaborate. How come I feel lost for the 4 days and my notes is completely blank. Not too late now I guess, just started the practise. Lol~

Law killing me.

Finance, i failing to fail I think.

Good luck for all the candidates ; )

你是爱我的 ♥

你　在我心中或许霸占了很重要的位置　所以我在乎很多事　对你的要求比对任何人都还要多　
我　质疑我在你心目中的位置　
因为生气　变得那么的不理智　
因为不爽　连这么芝麻绿豆的事也跟你计较
我想　我真的错了
其实　你是爱我的 ♥

我其实不爱吵架　只是想你多了解一下　我想我是个傻瓜　就是爱你我不能自拔



Omg.. I am so in love with Yise's songs..

肉眼看到的 未必是你们所相信的

我说些什么 或许别人也不觉得什么

我是顾虑得太多了吗？

我的心很脆弱 经不起什么打击

听着听着 眼泪也随着脸颊留了下来

无题

很累很累的时候 看看照片 疲惫也跟着减少了

我会加油 因为你是我的动力之一

我要放假

期待着下一趟之旅 跟谁都好

Feeling that cannot describe

Studying acca is really a wrong decision. I get older 20 years old because of the notes. Sometimes, I really feel to quit so much but I just couldn't let it be.


There is so much of thought inside my mind lately. I can feel myself lost. Don't ask me what is my problems because I myself also can't even describe not even words can describe. Anyone can find the way back for me? I feel sad when I saw those all. Those words hurt me. I cried. But my stand will never change. There is much more important things waiting for me.


Going to sleep now. Wake up and tomorrow will be another good day. I hope.

So down. I hope u understand but u didn't.

I hope u listen but u didn't.

Tired.

爸爸妈妈

我回家了 回家这一趟 感觉很好 这次比较特别的是本大小姐驾车回家了 第一次没人在身旁驾车 感觉真的有点可怕

回到家 整个人放松了很多 最近健康状况没那么好 所以时间大多都花在睡觉上面 我要快快去找个专科来看才行 这几天也看到爸爸妈妈对我的不放心 担心我的健康 担心我驾车安不安全 担心我不够钱用 就好像今天早上 爸爸问我你车还有油吗？要我帮你打油吗？我说不用 他又说要打油就拿信用卡去打（信用卡都是爸爸再帮我还的）之后跟他出去的时候 经过toll 他又问我你touch & go还有钱吗？要帮你去加吗？爸，不用啦..我会的啦 之后载了我回家 他要去做工的时候 又问你还有钱吗？够钱用吗？（爸，我好像前正子才跟你要钱咧..）我看到你对我的关心 担心 可是 我的样子好像很缺钱的样子吗？虽然我没有多余的钱 可是至少生活上还不至于有什么问题的 所以爸爸 你不要担心了好吗

之后 回到家就躺在沙发奄奄一息 妈妈看到了又问 你明天真的要驾车回家啊？我不放心咧.. 不然你叫sam载你回去啦 傻了一下 不然每一次那辆车妈咪帮我驾下来 然后我只是驾上去吗？ =.=''

突然这几天觉得 爸爸妈妈真的觉得我还很小很小

爸爸妈妈 好想好想每一天都像这样 可以待在你们的身边 毕竟 等以后正式做工后 应该也没那么常回家了吧

爸爸妈妈 我爱你们

I just couldn't take it anymore

To the what extent can my limitation go to the max?

I miss my mom
I miss my home
I miss Linie
I miss Chiok Ling
I miss Mei Ying

I just couldn't take it anymore TT

该死的想法

话说 那天和某位旧朋友喝茶去了 他还是老样子没什么变到
人家有心事 想说出来说说话 他应该会好点
可是我根本没在专心聆听 真不好意思
那件事一直在我脑海里打转 感觉越来越强烈 我想我是傻了
我知道那是很不清醒的想法
我明明清楚知道 这件事至今从来都不是我想追求的事
可是就不知道为什么
我想多一阵子 这些该死的想法 应该会暂时平伏吧

知道的你们 请帮我保守这个秘密哦 :P

I felt cheated by ACCA

'Check it out. ACCA had stopped graduation indefinitely. Because they are more focussed on converting the Affiliates to full members. Apparently there are a high number if ACCA grads that dont file their PER so they are using the budget to hold some kinda meet up between members and affiliates in sum sorta focus to encourage the affiliates to be more proactiv in attaining their membership.'

I found this from the lowyat.net forum. So sad. Graduation ceremony is what I pursue for so long. I want to give the proudest moment to my parents and now this is what ACCA told us. Feel cheated. Somemore, increasing our fees every years. What the ... !!

This is called ACCA.

Tireddddd

Tired tired tired. I know I shouldn't say this. They are a lot more people that are tired than me especially those working friends.

Lastly, I can get home. Happy for being home, but tomorrow going class again. Tired of travelling.

I am so dulan today for waiting my dad's friends for dinner for 2 hours in the restaurant. Why can't you say you will be late. What is the point you told us that you are on the way. Then bring one so called your gf dinner together. So where is your wife? Feel like to bit the sei hao po. Really!! Already have bf still want to stick with other's husband. Ok, I shouldn't say this here. I should only mind my own business.

Bf suggested to go Hong Kong next year. So excited but still in considering. Go or not?

Go or not?


Go or not??



Go or not???

有你真好

我　总是带给你麻烦
说好要独立　可是反而越来越依赖你
你对我的好　对我的照顾　我都看在眼里
然而我一直不停的接受　没有付出过什么
我深怕有天你会累　会厌倦
到时不要嫌弃我好吗?

亲爱的　一路走来　谢谢你　有你真好:-)

KK Day 1

I just came back from bar and online at hotel right now. KK here I am. The place where I was grown up. Not much different here since the last time I came back. I miss my old school when I pass by there. I wish I was graduate from there. Everything can be so different if I didn't left this place. May be my dream can come true.

So, not much special happened today. Just checked in the hotel and went to dad's friend house. Oh ya, I swim just now and go for jacuzzi. My aunt say tomorrow go swim together again at 8 in the morning wor. Crazy can. Then went to dinner and had a walk with dad's friend family also. He is so kind to lend out his car for us. The dinner was so surprisingly expensive. We ate the fish call ''parrot fish''. Wao~ it cost us RM600++ for just a fish. 1kg cost RM380. What is the special about the fish huh? I should post the photo of the fish here but feel so pai seh to capture those foods as a lot of adults are there. Suddenly, I feel Sabah is not a place to hang around with your friends because everything is so expensive here except seafood. Provided you know which type of seafood and you know which places to go because a lot of the places are mainly for the tourists only. Expensive die.

There was a small 'incident' happened today. Once again, my water bottle leak in the plane again. So the conclusion is this is for sure due to the air pressure. If not, why it is happen twice this year? What the most funny is once again my hard disk kena again. Denggggggggg, my hard disk just came back from warranty one week ago leh. Sadnye~

Haiz, so tomorrow if I have time will continue my blog. Gonna sleep early and wake up early to swim tomorrow. GILERRR!!

HELP!

Non stop classes made me so tired. Not yet start any revision, but I am going out for vacation again next week. Class clashing. After come back need to be audited. Arghh.. Don't feel to work anymore, but I don't want to be so irresponsible. How how how? I feel like the time is not enough, but I know the problem is on me. My time management is so bad. I sleep I watch movie when I have free time. And yet I can do a lot of things during the free time. I have been keep on delaying my revision plan. I can feel that I will be dying soon after come back. HELP~~ Anyone can HELP me?!

他的感受　我终于明白
那一刻的画面　一直在我脑海里浮现

最美好的一年

主唱：黄毓敏
作词：管启源
作曲：Alex San


每一天
我练习如何过得好一点
不停的试验
幸福的配方有哪一些
爱过的经验
让我发现宁愿先苦后甜
回到起点
我问自己对谁想念

我的昨天
来不及回想已失去焦点
是一种错觉
还是我走的太快太远
笑过的脸 哭过的眼 都埋在后花园
它将会陪着我走过花开花谢

我最美好的一年
即将要开始上演
流泪的情节是为了让快乐有理由出现
我最美好的一年
爱不再是像一个含糊的预言
我可以想象一个画面
你们都在身边

*in love with this song anyone?* =)

The end of february

So, the cny had come to an end last night. Had a great dinner with my family and last gambling session with my dearest =) Woohoo~ I learned the rummy (dunno how to spell) and I am loving it. I don't like gambling because the only game that I know is 21. I hate playing game that need to use brain a lot especially cou dai di. Don't know why every year people need to teach me again and again but I still can't remember the rules. But I wish to try the 'in between'. Must get a chance to play it. Lol~

Last week, I had a gathering with my sista for lunch. Lou a mini yee sang at sushi king which I want to try since the last 2 years but I always didn't have the chance to go there during cny. Nice chating and nice try with the weird food that other will not have a try with us. Nowadays we all can hardly meet even we stay quite near to each other. I mean, by car distance, which I don't have, but will having soon when pass daddy's drive test. Haha.

This is the mini yee sang that I've been craving since 2 years ago.

My sista~ (missing the other one at k.k)

Guess what, I pass my exam. So happy. As a motivation so that I can graduate soon, which will be 2 more years or more, I got this as the reward from him.

The bear bear will get bigger and bigger if I pass all papers. Can get the biggest one when graduate ACCA. Lol. So the biggest bear story happened to be a long time ago when I shop with him and saw a graduation bear at hallmark, so I kidding that I want the bear when I graduate. He agreed to buy for me. For fun purpose, I walk inside the hallmark on last Saturday to have a look for the bear bear and I was so shock that the bear bear cost RM1,200. OMG =.=''

Cny

Happy chinese new year everyone. How is the cny celebration there? As you can see, I just created a new blog. New year new life. As people always say, let's the bygone be bygone. The cny holiday has come to an end soon. I didn't do anything in this holiday. All doesn't follow my plan. I watched tv like i never watch tv before. Have a little meet with family, tarc friends and his family. Sounds so boring but i do enjoyed it.

So how the collection of ang pow out there? Mine is secret =P But it is enough to buy my clinique set which i still considering want to buy the brand or not heehee(for those who close with me, you should know) *Happynye* Then i can share somebody ang pow also. Lol. I am kaki buli.

Planning to start my abandone work tonight to get my extra income. Results release on monday. No eyes see >.< Tomorrow will meet with my dearest sista and that is the end of my holiday =(

Good luck my friends~