It was really long time ago since my last update huh.
I moved to sunway hostel now. And I was staying here for more than half months now. Housemates are great. Friendly. Basically, still there is no different and I am very used to the life staying outside. Hehe.
The class here is really pack. Large group I can say. Every people look so serious. Everyone look like so clever. It is just the second week and there is a lot of homework and test coming up. It make me recall of the life at tarc. The only thing that I hate here is the morning classes. I cannot used to the time differences. I mean the class started at 8am. I have to wake up at 6.30 even though I live very near. I really hate it so much.
New year new lifestyle. Hopefully everything goes smoothly on me and people around. Same wish every years but i hope it will be totally different this year. God bless me (^_^)v
终于终于 考完试啦 想哭但暂时还没哭出来 考完了 整个人也轻松了 但是人就是犯贱的 平时那么的爱看戏 平时那么的爱上线 平时那么的想睡觉 突然之间人变的空虚 不懂要做什么 看戏又闲 上线不懂上什么 睡觉睡不着 为什么 人非要这么犯贱不可咧？
我有付出努力 可是还是不会做 真的很伤心咯 学生的生活 我真的受够啦 我要做工 我要赚钱 我要买很多很多自己喜欢的东西 我还要等几久啊？
下学期决定转去sunway读书 一直都想要做的事 要搬去宿舍住 有点紧张tim 又是时候忙搬家了 @_@ 短短的假期 我要充分利用才行
朋友们 我得空啦 约我出去吧 xD
lovely couple ♥
Gonna leave the place that i stayed for 3 years..
我想我会怀念这里的
我有付出努力 可是还是不会做 真的很伤心咯 学生的生活 我真的受够啦 我要做工 我要赚钱 我要买很多很多自己喜欢的东西 我还要等几久啊？
下学期决定转去sunway读书 一直都想要做的事 要搬去宿舍住 有点紧张tim 又是时候忙搬家了 @_@ 短短的假期 我要充分利用才行
朋友们 我得空啦 约我出去吧 xD
lovely couple ♥
Gonna leave the place that i stayed for 3 years..我想我会怀念这里的
请原谅这样的我
对他有点觉得抱歉 发现到自己真得不能和一个人太好 否则我真得很容易会欺负对方
与其说是欺负 因该是说我的真实性格吧 我很容易不耐烦 这个我真的抗拒不了 一旦觉得不耐烦 就会对某人忽冷忽热 而这样真实的我 或许只有几个人才会见识到吧 我想 他们应该会很痛苦吧 对不起
去了好姐妹的毕业典礼 好羡慕 也不懂几时才到我？和几个不错的中学同学见面 有点像小型聚会 喜欢三八的气氛 了解大家的状况 晚上也和他们去吃了晚餐 好不容易最近都有和住在附近的朋友保持联系 出来聚会 但不久又要远离这里熟悉的朋友了 有点觉得可惜 虽然也没搬到很远去 可是想到也没什么聚会的机会了 就有点emo起来了 不久后又要重新适应新环境了 我可以做到吗？
还有9天又是考试了 这次没有以往的那么紧张 也不懂为什么 或许时间还没到吧
Acca的同伴们， 加油哦！
Oh yeah ^^v off to taiwan tomorrow. My luggage still half way preparing. Luckily my fever is ok now.
I have a lot of places that I want to go. Need to wait I am super rich only can go. May be 20 years later? Maldives, Hokkaido, Korea wait for me.
I got my new toy last week. It is cute. I love it, thanks dear ^_^
I have a lot of places that I want to go. Need to wait I am super rich only can go. May be 20 years later? Maldives, Hokkaido, Korea wait for me.
I got my new toy last week. It is cute. I love it, thanks dear ^_^
My dream heaven, when I can go there?
丢了的自己，我会记得捡回来吗？
有时候我还真不了解我自己 哪一个是真正的我我也不懂
我学着做更好的自己 可是这样的我 反而让我自己劳累
有些话想说 不知怎么说 有些话 说了就不想重复地再说 时机错了就是错了还是我们的表达能力都很有问题？
以前 在很久以前 很该死的想法 通通又涌上脑海里了
日复一日 越来越频密 我知道那是不对的
好想到处走走 就自己一个人 kl有这样的地方吗？
我学着做更好的自己 可是这样的我 反而让我自己劳累
有些话想说 不知怎么说 有些话 说了就不想重复地再说 时机错了就是错了还是我们的表达能力都很有问题？
以前 在很久以前 很该死的想法 通通又涌上脑海里了
日复一日 越来越频密 我知道那是不对的
好想到处走走 就自己一个人 kl有这样的地方吗？
Tracy送了我一盒月饼 那天在她家说好吃 问她哪里买的
结果竟然真的送了我一盒 谢谢啦 林太 真的很好吃 很感动
结果竟然真的送了我一盒 谢谢啦 林太 真的很好吃 很感动
我也很想像以前一样 在家没有提灯笼 不过点很多很多的蜡烛 真怀念 （那是回不到过去的童年）
有时候，莫名的心情不好，不想和任何人说话，只想一个人静静的发呆
有时候，突然觉得心情烦躁，看什么都觉得不舒服，心里闷的发慌，拼命想寻找一个口。
有时候，发现身边的人都不了解自己，面对着身边的人，突然觉得说不出话。
有时候，感觉自己与世界格格不入，曾经一直坚持的东西一夜间面目全非。有时候，突然很想逃离现在的生活，想不顾一切收拾自己简单的行李去流浪。
有时候，别人突然对你说，我觉得你变了，然后自己开始百感交集。
有时候，希望时间为自己停下，做完己还没来得及做的事情。有时候，想一个人躲起来脆弱，不愿别人看到自己的伤口。
有时候，突然很想哭，却难过的哭不出来。有时候，夜深人静，突然觉得不是睡不着，而是固执地不想睡。
有时候，走过熟悉的街角，看到熟悉的背影，突然就想起一个人的脸。有时候，明明自己心里有很多话要说，却不知道怎样表达。
有时候，觉得自己拥有着整个世界，一瞬间却又觉得自己其实一无所有。
真的只是有时候，明明自己身边很多朋友，却依然觉得孤单。有时候，很想放纵自己，希望自己痛痛快快歇斯底里地发一次疯。
有时候，突然找不到自己，把自己丢的无影无踪。有时候，心里突然冒出一种厌倦的情绪，觉得自己很累很累。
有时候，看不到自己未来的样子，迷茫的不知所措。有时候，发现自己一夜之间长大了。
有时候，听到一首歌，就会突然想起一个人。有时候，希望能找个人好好疼爱自己，渴望一种安全感， 可当那个可以疼你的人出现的时候，你却偏执地退隐。
有时候，别人误解了自己有口无心的一句话，心里郁闷的发慌。有时候，被别人伤害，嘴上讲没事，其实心里难过的要死。
有时候，常常在回忆里挣扎，有很多过去无法释怀。有时候，很容易感动别人的关怀，有时候却麻木地像个笨蛋。
有时候，看着时间一点点流逝，任凭叹息，自己却无能为力。其实，有时候，真的会想这么多。
跟朋友装沉默，跟陌生人讲心里话。对于在乎你的，不想让 他们担心，有时候， 没有消息就是一种好消息。其实，很想说“我很好”，或许是昧着心说谎， 也只是想把最灿烂的一面，放在每个人对自己印象的首页。
丢了的自己，要记得捡回来……该死的我都犯着每一个有时候
May be I just think too much
Argh.. This holiday was so bored. Suddenly, I feel so lonely. I like to be alone, but these few days really make me feel that I really having no plan to do. All of the closest friends have their own planning for the holidays. Though I not very like to go out, but staying in the house for few straight days really can make me crazy.
Just now, suddenly feel that I wanna eat McD. So, I ask my sis to go along with me. Besides going there, I also want to go to the grocery shop to buy some snacks and buy ice blended mocha that I suddenly craving for. When I drove outside, I really feel scary. Everywhere is so dark (nilai really like kampung, all the roads are so dark), decided to go for the ice blended first. What? The café is closed. So down. So went to grocery shop buy other stuffs, really like only few shops are opening. So, I went to the shop and when going back, there is 2 african outside the shops. Wa, really scary, I don’t know why just feel scary. There is no other on the street. Holiday is really holiday, the street also became so silent and weird. The silence made me feel even lonely. He went to vacation. For the first few days. I feel so free without his voice. Haha. But today really not used to it, we almost hang on the phone for everyday. Suddenly, I am thinking of how is the life if I am going to work at other place one day. If we were far apart, I used to feel that it really doesn’t matter as long as we care for each other. Even though he is not supporting me for doing that. Things may be different now, I guess I am the one that cannot handle this situation. Without me, he still can live happily. And I, I don’t know how much time that I need to paralyze myself. I hate myself to become this, I believe no one cannot live without other. Just like the lyric in jolin’s song-没有一个人 非要另一个人才能过一生. I want to be independent, I don’t want to depend on any other. Linie is right, we need to grow up. Somehow, we are forced to grow up too.
I don’t know why I am so emo today. I guess because I am too free to think too much.
Forget about it. My room is in a mess. I want to go to Ikea to find for small furniture to fit inside my room. Many of my stuffs at pandan indah had been moved to my house at Nilai since I staying most of the time here. Clothes, bag and notes are all over my room. May be some day I even need one personal shoes rack for me in this house. Just that I not dare to bring all shoes home, or else my dad will fainted to see my shoes. As he always said, 1 person also need so many shoes meh? But now I am in a controllable condition la at least. Last time was even worse.
I WANT TO GO OUT. Anyone willing to fetch me? =(
Just now, suddenly feel that I wanna eat McD. So, I ask my sis to go along with me. Besides going there, I also want to go to the grocery shop to buy some snacks and buy ice blended mocha that I suddenly craving for. When I drove outside, I really feel scary. Everywhere is so dark (nilai really like kampung, all the roads are so dark), decided to go for the ice blended first. What? The café is closed. So down. So went to grocery shop buy other stuffs, really like only few shops are opening. So, I went to the shop and when going back, there is 2 african outside the shops. Wa, really scary, I don’t know why just feel scary. There is no other on the street. Holiday is really holiday, the street also became so silent and weird. The silence made me feel even lonely. He went to vacation. For the first few days. I feel so free without his voice. Haha. But today really not used to it, we almost hang on the phone for everyday. Suddenly, I am thinking of how is the life if I am going to work at other place one day. If we were far apart, I used to feel that it really doesn’t matter as long as we care for each other. Even though he is not supporting me for doing that. Things may be different now, I guess I am the one that cannot handle this situation. Without me, he still can live happily. And I, I don’t know how much time that I need to paralyze myself. I hate myself to become this, I believe no one cannot live without other. Just like the lyric in jolin’s song-没有一个人 非要另一个人才能过一生. I want to be independent, I don’t want to depend on any other. Linie is right, we need to grow up. Somehow, we are forced to grow up too.
I don’t know why I am so emo today. I guess because I am too free to think too much.
Forget about it. My room is in a mess. I want to go to Ikea to find for small furniture to fit inside my room. Many of my stuffs at pandan indah had been moved to my house at Nilai since I staying most of the time here. Clothes, bag and notes are all over my room. May be some day I even need one personal shoes rack for me in this house. Just that I not dare to bring all shoes home, or else my dad will fainted to see my shoes. As he always said, 1 person also need so many shoes meh? But now I am in a controllable condition la at least. Last time was even worse.
I WANT TO GO OUT. Anyone willing to fetch me? =(
Trip coming soon~
Lastly, I managed to have time to sit and online here. Suddenly so busy since yesterday. Yes, I like the feel for being busy. Feel that I have a long time that live in the life that is free. Not that I am really had nothing to do with, but is just that my class usually is only 3 hours for a day. Plus the 2 hours on the transport time. I only busy for 5 hours. All the remaining time is free. Free doesn't mean not occupied, just that not doing something is meaningful.
Ok, let's talk about yesterday until today. I woke up early hoping that I can have some time to review my notes before my catchup class started. But I failed to do so, helping my dad to analyze the trip to Taiwan. Called for 2 agents and compared for the price. Keep asking me to give them some time to confirm with me and bla bla bla. While waiting, doing some research at cari forum. Wa, I get a lot of useful information there. Now I know why bf likes to hang at forum so much. Feel so sorry that I always mumbling him for wasting time there. (Sam Ho, anyway this is not the reason for you staying there for so long time next time XD) Continue my story, they called back and I decided to follow the Malaysian Harmony for 6D5N. Plus my free and easy for 2 days. Hehe. So, I am going off in the middle of October. *Happy* By the time I managed to bank in for the fees and settle the flight, it was already 12pm. Bath and lunch to go for class in a rush. After the long class, reach home is already 10++pm. Dinner, bath, play with my Teddy and Wawa, sms with bf, chat with viv for a while. Then I already fainted on the bed I think. (kua jeong) There is a long time I never fall asleep in not more than 1 second. Lol
So, today wake up early and send Teddy for a blood test and shave him botak. I think I kena the speed track on my way. Forget that Raya is coming and should be a lot of camera are set up. Hope I din get the summon la. After settled all, reach home is already around 3pm. And once again, I fainted on my lovely bed. =.=''
2nd term started. It is the indication that exam is coming very very soon too. It's time to start study. After December exam, will be going to Singapore with vivian and may be mom too. Then cant wait for my Hong Kong trip on next year. Hehe. And our SPSL trip to Tioman. Yor, so excited la!
See this, he is Teddy in botak, no doubt, his cuteness gone. But I believe the cuteness will be returning soon.
I am in love with this photo lately =)
Ok, let's talk about yesterday until today. I woke up early hoping that I can have some time to review my notes before my catchup class started. But I failed to do so, helping my dad to analyze the trip to Taiwan. Called for 2 agents and compared for the price. Keep asking me to give them some time to confirm with me and bla bla bla. While waiting, doing some research at cari forum. Wa, I get a lot of useful information there. Now I know why bf likes to hang at forum so much. Feel so sorry that I always mumbling him for wasting time there. (Sam Ho, anyway this is not the reason for you staying there for so long time next time XD) Continue my story, they called back and I decided to follow the Malaysian Harmony for 6D5N. Plus my free and easy for 2 days. Hehe. So, I am going off in the middle of October. *Happy* By the time I managed to bank in for the fees and settle the flight, it was already 12pm. Bath and lunch to go for class in a rush. After the long class, reach home is already 10++pm. Dinner, bath, play with my Teddy and Wawa, sms with bf, chat with viv for a while. Then I already fainted on the bed I think. (kua jeong) There is a long time I never fall asleep in not more than 1 second. Lol
So, today wake up early and send Teddy for a blood test and shave him botak. I think I kena the speed track on my way. Forget that Raya is coming and should be a lot of camera are set up. Hope I din get the summon la. After settled all, reach home is already around 3pm. And once again, I fainted on my lovely bed. =.=''
2nd term started. It is the indication that exam is coming very very soon too. It's time to start study. After December exam, will be going to Singapore with vivian and may be mom too. Then cant wait for my Hong Kong trip on next year. Hehe. And our SPSL trip to Tioman. Yor, so excited la!
See this, he is Teddy in botak, no doubt, his cuteness gone. But I believe the cuteness will be returning soon.
I am in love with this photo lately =)
